FML
Tuesday, November 24, 2009 // 2:43 PM
I don't know how to put it in words.
I don't know how to react when you told me everything in a joking manner.
Nevertheless, part of me wished you're joking, but you're not after all.
Things would never have come this far for us if i got to know about it right in the beginning.
That's how much hatred i would hold for someone.
Why did you lie in the first place?
You asked me to forgive you. But deep in your heart, do you really think you're wrong?
I really really don't think you mean it when you said you're in the wrong.
You've always got a reason for your wrongdoings and to you, you're always right.
Everything always starts and ends with you.
You decided to leave my life abruptly, and you come back as & when you like it.
Do you cherish me now? Or you just need someone to accompany you?
What's the worse thing that i have done to you to make you feel upset?
& when i think about what you've done over the months, the pain is unbearable that i'd rather not think about it.
Sad and angry isn't the word to describe my emotions.
Probably disappointment and disgusted could fit in.
So what if all these happened in the past?
Can my awful memories be erased? No?
Can i take it as nothing had happened? No?
Is forgiving someone really so easy?
Maybe all these while, being with you was a habit.
Could it be nothing more?
Teach me how to handle this.
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