changed...?
Thursday, August 6, 2009 // 10:07 PM
Sick of my life. :,(
everything is kinda meaningless now. Sometimes when I think of the future, I don't think I should exist.
I've become a terrible person. Bad temper, bad character. Everything about me spells bad.
I miss those days when people laughed at me for being stupid, cause I haven't seen the real world yet.
As I grow older, I've come across many types of people that are fake.
Why be so good to you in the first place when you wanna hurt me in the end? And things, troubles just keep bottling up inside me, I don't know how to let them out.
The one who would always listen to me grumble turned into a changed over person. You made me feel so protected, then left me alone out there to fend for myself. Everything you said is just so contradicting. You're treating me like dirt and yet i'm still unwillingly to wake up & move on.
Its because of you that my life is in a total mess, and i'm not sure if i'm still behaving like human. The only thing i'm holding on to keep me sane is no longer here. Think about the words you said to me and the actions you do now. Maybe you'll start slapping your mouth and ask yourself why you're so contradicting.
So this is your definition of no time. _|_
when i tell people the reasons you told me, i was hoping they'll think alike like you. Instead, all they did was to shake their heads and asked me what the hell you were thinking. Was i stupid to have believed you?
Right now, i feel that no one around me could be trusted, including those you've known for years. I don't know why i'm feeling this way. Just feel that everything, everyone is so fake.
Guess this is how terrible i've become & how much I've really changed.
i was planning to do a decent post. but blogger screwed up again.
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